this too shall pass...or so i hope



I crossed a sad Dunlop yesterday on my way back from work. There was no one who’d hold my hand and help me dodge the jam-packed crossing. I have this strange phobia of crossing busy roads – I get confused and end up standing at on side of the road for really long. But every single day last week, Shukla di held me by my hand and crossed the busy road with me (she’s completely spoilt me, trust that).
However, yesterday I crossed Dunlop all alone...a bit too late, a bit too confused. And the irony is, I did not want all this to happen YESTERDAY. My shift changes from Monday...so this Friday was apparently the last day (well almost, exaggeratedly speaking) of me being a 6th floor-ite. So the day had been BAD, what with me staying back after work and missing the 6 PM bus.
And I am surprised at myself, at how morose I felt on my way back home cuz I won’t be seeing these faces for quite some time now. There was this uneasy pain in the chest, I cannot locate exactly where. I was SAD for reasons unknown to even me. I did not even say a proper ‘goodbye’ to them cuz I knew I was weeping internally and in no situation wanted those tears to flow out.
I’m really going to miss being on the 6th floor. I miss it already. It pains me immensely to think that Monday will not be the same again.  No gossip in the washroom...no filling up water bottles and hiding them inside our secret den... no eyeing Annapurna Sengupta...no coffee...no thank yous after the toffees...no fighting over the same extension number...no more grudging about time with Shukla di...no more being allowed to fill some generous amount of time from Ranita di...no more watching Sourav da sleep-working...no more ‘chhorano’ with Atmaja...no more of being scolded by Debapriya for doing something completely silly... and finally, no more lickonomics :)...but thankfully, no Rangeet :P
I’ll miss all of these and so much more. I hope they miss me a bit as well cuz i’m going to miss them so very much.
All i can say is that THIS TOO SHALL PASS some 4-5 months later, i guess...and sooner if i’m lucky enough :|
Location: SH264, Maharashtra, India

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