Then life decided to happen...
Nothing is going according to the plans. Not that I ever planned much. Rather, I’ve always liked to ‘go with the flow’. To let life surprise you, is fascinating. The surprises are accompanied by shocks, alright.
As a 9-year old, there was a time when I planned to become a doctor (a pretty doctor *blushes*) and save the mankind from the severest of diseases. The dream left me with my good grades. Today, as a twenty something, I don’t even remember dreaming such a hopeless dream.
The most talented fashion designer of the country, nah world…yes that had been a plan…to drape the world in my creation. Those sketches are still fresh in my memory, and my notebooks. There must have been more pages filled with my sketches than with notes. I had designed dresses for almost every celebrity that came to my mind…well that was a daydream that left before I could realize.
After failing two years in a row in a music reality show audition, I realized the world is not enough deserving to hear my voice (how modest of me!). The bathroom fittings had a better ear for my kind of music. They are my most favourite audience even today…no criticism, no brickbats, only silent listeners.
By the time I had passed my 10th, I had no clue of what I wanted to be. That’s when I decided to be myself. I decided to stop planning and let life happen. And it did and how! I started feeling better. The introvert in me was somewhat becoming talkative and best of all, the grades started looking better, much better. The two years in AG had been one hell of a journey…something out of a dream that I had never dreamt. And as they say, ‘even this will pass’…the happy days came crushing with a shocker…the dark days of college (well, of course I’m exaggerating…they weren’t that dark, but grey may be). The grades had descended to their lowest ever and at one point of time I had even planned to end it all (get married, I mean…well marriage IS the end of it all). But PLANNING is not applicable in my life. Things just have to take a u-turn when I’m all down and morose.
CU, an institution I had cursed the three years of college, had returned…like a dream. So many strangers I met here have today become friends and even more. The wee bit of introvert left in me had to flee to let the nonsensical talker come out. Today people laugh at me when I say ‘introvert’ is a character trait. So many memories made…so many moments lived. I’m not sure how fulfilling the course has been but the journey so far has been beyond extra ordinary.
Today, as I stealthily type away this blog at my office desk, I can’t help ask myself a question: Did I plan this? Hell no! PLANNING IS NOT ALLOWED, life snaps back. When I first heard the name of this company, I thought they had some kind of a water pumping station (and why would a pumping station need a content analyst??). And when I finally came to this office for the interview, from the moment I stepped in, I wanted to work here. This office was everything I never dreamt of. Perhaps that’s the reason things worked out for me over here. I wanted to decorate my desk like ‘that one there’. This lady who interviewed me was really nice with an even nicer name (she’s the only person on Facebook with that name). First day at work and I come to know that the desk I loved so much on the day of the interview belongs to the lovely lady who interviewed me, WHO also happens to be my People Manager, WHO has her workstation just beside mine, WHO right now is sitting by my left working on something awfully important, WHO at any moment can peek into my screen and find out that I’m not working! But this lady beside me isn’t bad. My impression of her has remained what it had been at first sight, SWEET. She hasn’t done or said a thing that could change my opinion. She’s only been a stern and curt senior a few times (to others, I meant…not to me :P).
Today, with most of my work friends at their induction, I seem to be the only living creature among these workaholic zombies. Even though Abrity di (SWEET!) is sitting just beside the window, she doesn’t care to look to her left to see it rain outside. I am, however, feasting my soul from the corner of my eye.
That’s how it’s been so far—full of surprises and bits of shockers. That’s how life decided to happen. And where do I go from here? Well that hasn’t been decided. I guess, I’ll just have to let life walk me to it.
As a 9-year old, there was a time when I planned to become a doctor (a pretty doctor *blushes*) and save the mankind from the severest of diseases. The dream left me with my good grades. Today, as a twenty something, I don’t even remember dreaming such a hopeless dream.
The most talented fashion designer of the country, nah world…yes that had been a plan…to drape the world in my creation. Those sketches are still fresh in my memory, and my notebooks. There must have been more pages filled with my sketches than with notes. I had designed dresses for almost every celebrity that came to my mind…well that was a daydream that left before I could realize.
After failing two years in a row in a music reality show audition, I realized the world is not enough deserving to hear my voice (how modest of me!). The bathroom fittings had a better ear for my kind of music. They are my most favourite audience even today…no criticism, no brickbats, only silent listeners.
By the time I had passed my 10th, I had no clue of what I wanted to be. That’s when I decided to be myself. I decided to stop planning and let life happen. And it did and how! I started feeling better. The introvert in me was somewhat becoming talkative and best of all, the grades started looking better, much better. The two years in AG had been one hell of a journey…something out of a dream that I had never dreamt. And as they say, ‘even this will pass’…the happy days came crushing with a shocker…the dark days of college (well, of course I’m exaggerating…they weren’t that dark, but grey may be). The grades had descended to their lowest ever and at one point of time I had even planned to end it all (get married, I mean…well marriage IS the end of it all). But PLANNING is not applicable in my life. Things just have to take a u-turn when I’m all down and morose.
CU, an institution I had cursed the three years of college, had returned…like a dream. So many strangers I met here have today become friends and even more. The wee bit of introvert left in me had to flee to let the nonsensical talker come out. Today people laugh at me when I say ‘introvert’ is a character trait. So many memories made…so many moments lived. I’m not sure how fulfilling the course has been but the journey so far has been beyond extra ordinary.
Today, as I stealthily type away this blog at my office desk, I can’t help ask myself a question: Did I plan this? Hell no! PLANNING IS NOT ALLOWED, life snaps back. When I first heard the name of this company, I thought they had some kind of a water pumping station (and why would a pumping station need a content analyst??). And when I finally came to this office for the interview, from the moment I stepped in, I wanted to work here. This office was everything I never dreamt of. Perhaps that’s the reason things worked out for me over here. I wanted to decorate my desk like ‘that one there’. This lady who interviewed me was really nice with an even nicer name (she’s the only person on Facebook with that name). First day at work and I come to know that the desk I loved so much on the day of the interview belongs to the lovely lady who interviewed me, WHO also happens to be my People Manager, WHO has her workstation just beside mine, WHO right now is sitting by my left working on something awfully important, WHO at any moment can peek into my screen and find out that I’m not working! But this lady beside me isn’t bad. My impression of her has remained what it had been at first sight, SWEET. She hasn’t done or said a thing that could change my opinion. She’s only been a stern and curt senior a few times (to others, I meant…not to me :P).
Today, with most of my work friends at their induction, I seem to be the only living creature among these workaholic zombies. Even though Abrity di (SWEET!) is sitting just beside the window, she doesn’t care to look to her left to see it rain outside. I am, however, feasting my soul from the corner of my eye.
That’s how it’s been so far—full of surprises and bits of shockers. That’s how life decided to happen. And where do I go from here? Well that hasn’t been decided. I guess, I’ll just have to let life walk me to it.
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