čŐήFu$ξđ iN lOvE!!!!!!!!!!

i have never been in love. i quite doubt i ever will be. i was made that way. i guess i am too logical to be in love. i am not all that lovey-dovey. i think i am pretty corny. yes, i AM corny. it's pretty hard for me to believe that someone will fall in love with me. i mean, i really don't believe someone will fall in love with me. like i have not been believing Ayush Keshan (sorry Ayush, i am writting your name. but anyways, nobody reads this!).
we've been on and off friends for a pretty long time now. there's no reason why i should not be in love with you. more so, because YOU have assured me of your love so many times. i can't bring myself to trust you on that. i have been kind of spoon fed to "love all" and "trust few". i am sorry i don't reciprocate the same feelings. and you are on the other side of the computer, so i have no clue how true you emotions are (not that i WOULD have a clue if you would have been with me). but i sure do LIKE you. had it been someone else, i would not have talked to that guy who has already proposed me :).
i would love to be in love with you, Ayush. but i am NOT, right now. i am pretty confused. what i have for you can't be love coz love is supposed to be special. and i don't feel special, i just feel myself when i talk to you. or is love all about being yourself with your special someone???
i don't know. i am like realy confused. you take care about the love part, Ayush and i will take care of the friendship bit.

Comments

Unknown said…
Hi may I know whos dis?
July 30, 2009 at 11:03 AM
rit said…
heyyy this sounded interesting can u plz post some more details about u n d guy 'ayush keshan'
July 30, 2009 at 11:24 AM
TEE said…
well this is me, the blogger. who r u @ayush?
September 30, 2010 at 11:41 AM
Unknown said…
@TEE- I am Ayush Keshan
March 23, 2011 at 9:34 PM
TEE said…
@ayush are u the same Ayush Keshan from AG?
there's been a major confusion...i don't know if i should share
September 27, 2011 at 10:24 AM
Unknown said…
I would request you to please share as it is associated with my name on the Internet.
May 28, 2012 at 4:30 PM
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